I'm fed up with such a life.

When I'm in school, I am so hyper. So happy that I can do anything.

It's a huge difference when I'm walking back home. The thought of facing her, and everybody makes me feel like giving up on this life. But I can't day. Heaven forbid me so.

While I'm listening to music, I hope the music drowns my senses... And a speeding vehicle comes and crashes into me... And then I die. 

Even better, I die in my sleep. I'll love that. :(

One thought leads to another. After that I wonder what people would say, who would actually attend my funeral. Like what would happen. 

When I die, during my funeral, nobody should cry. I want a white coffin. :D And pop music to be played. Everyone laughs and jokes. Okay that's kinda creepy. Hahaha.