FAQ:

Q:How old are you?

A:14.

Q: Underage lehs.

A: Nevermind de, cause this kind of driving I damn pro de.

Q: BUT NO LAISEN! Ok, licence.

A: I SAID, THIS KIND OF DRIVING I DAMN PRO DE. But maybe not. So long never do le.

Q: Ok, just tell me what is it.

A: Ok, it's 开夜车。

Yes, I'm going to burn the midnight oil the next two nights. Because I cannot finish ART on time. Whenever the INSPIRATION comes, a pity is that the ENVIRONMENT and MATERIALS are missing. So maybe I'm going to stock up Nescafe Latte and drive my way through the night. Seriously, Art--three weeks is not enough when there are distractions like siblings, computers, the noise pollution especially. I want to finish it. Yes I can--ONLY if I can burn the midnight oil without any distractions from my DUMB sister. Three weeks is only barely enough if your family is supportive, and you're the only child. Three weeks is overly enough if you can fully concentrate, you have all the things you need--camera, printer, colour pencils, computer...etcetc. And they must be at the right place. Without them at the right place, I CANNOT DO IT. 

Below is the conversation with Felicia while I'm blogging this post. It's almost exactly what I'm going to post. So make do with it.

(8:14 PM) ////  I: im telling you something. it may sound like ranting to you. 

(8:14 PM) ❤ felicia: ? 

(8:14 PM) ////  I: but the person im ranting about--im not blaming her. 

(8:14 PM) ❤ felicia: okay okay . 

(8:14 PM) ❤ felicia: xD 

(8:14 PM) ////  I: i havent finished art. 

(8:15 PM) ////  I: i keep shelving it because laylin forgot to bring my research materials. 

(8:15 PM) ////  I: as what my pm said--when the inspiration comes, but the environment and materials are not there. 

(8:15 PM) ////  I: many times i HAVE the feeling to do it. 

(8:16 PM) ❤ felicia: wait uhs , i brbs . you continue typing . i bathe 1st , later i reply you . sorry uhs . my mum is nagging . BUT CONTINUE TYPING . 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: i might have been at layout now already if havent been shelving it 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: ok 

(8:16 PM) ❤ felicia: continue . 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: i know. 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: im thinking 

(8:16 PM) ❤ felicia: okay okay 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: ART, this subject is so subjective. 

(8:16 PM) ////  I: you need inspiration. you need all the things that you need. 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: but i dont have them 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: i ask my friends 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: not many of them have either 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: internet is a restriction 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: cannot get pictures from there. 

(8:17 PM) ////  I: so luckily my father got camera. 

(8:18 PM) ////  I: but i dont have a printer. i find my friend. my friend helps willingly, but keeps forgetting to bring it 

(8:18 PM) ////  I: i dont blame laylin 

(8:18 PM) ////  I: im serious 

(8:18 PM) ////  I: i dont blame her. if i blame her, it seems like i owe her too much 

(8:19 PM) ////  I: i asked her to print, yet she keeps forgetting. i do remind her, but she still forgets. friday was like, my last day for her already. if she doesnt bring, it's almost the end of world. 

(8:20 PM) ////  I: again. art needs to be inspired in order to concentrate doing it. 

(8:20 PM) ////  I: without that concentration, it's an impossible task to do it well. 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: i might seem to be like a perfectionist, but im not. 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: i only want to pass my exams with flying colours. 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: although math is a serious restriction 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: i try my very best to do it. 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: it's a sure thing i cannot absorb things 

(8:21 PM) ////  I: IT'S INFURIATING. 

(8:22 PM) ////  I: i've already given her days to print it. but she keeps forgetting it. 

(8:22 PM) ////  I: i refer laylin as her and she. 

(8:22 PM) ////  I: cause i feel like i owe her. JUST TOO MUCH. i ask her to print, and yet im complaining here. 

(8:22 PM) ////  I: it seems so wrong. 

(8:23 PM) ////  I: i mean, it's like, without her help, you might have no pictures at all. I REALLY WANT TO DO IT. 

(8:23 PM) ////  I: but without the pictures i cannot do in my room. 

(8:23 PM) ////  I: the computer table is so small, and it's in the living room 

(8:24 PM) ////  I: only if it's in my room, it'll be good. 

(8:24 PM) ////  I: i have the pictures in my computer. 

(8:24 PM) ////  I: BUT CAN ANYONE DO IT WITHOUT AMPLE SPACE? 

(8:24 PM) ////  I: i think at least you must have that ample space. 

(8:24 PM) ////  I: if not you'll be so distracted. 

(8:25 PM) ////  I: you'll go msn. 

(8:25 PM) ////  I: go internet. 

(8:25 PM) ////  I: wander away. 

(8:25 PM) ////  I: and what's more, even if i have the ample space, I'VE GOT THE DARN TELEVISION behind me, booming away. 

(8:25 PM) ////  I: i really WANT to do. 

(8:26 PM) ////  I: but. the environment is just so wrong. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: to me, art must be done quietly, without anyone interfering. it's very irritating if someone's looking at you. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: while you do your art. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: and then with all those noise pollution. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: IT'S JUST SO WRONG. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: I DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME ANYMORE! 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: tomorrow, and the day after, are my last two days. 

(8:27 PM) ////  I: I YEARN for the computer to be moved. 

(8:28 PM) ////  I: BUT IT CANNOT BE 

(8:28 PM) ////  I: i hate my sister. for TALKING SO MUCH 

(8:28 PM) ////  I: i hate my father. 

(8:29 PM) ////  I: for taking to such a liking to english movies, when he couldnt even understand simple english 

(8:29 PM) ////  I: it's ILLOGICAL. 

(8:29 PM) ////  I: i dont know what to say anymore. 

(8:29 PM) ❤ felicia: hmms , about the ample space one , i know how you feel . thats how i feel now . 

(8:29 PM) ❤ felicia: maybe you can hide in your room & do ? 

(8:29 PM) ////  I: i cannot. 

(8:29 PM) ❤ felicia: & for laylin de , call her now & remind her ? 

(8:29 PM) ////  I: I DONT HAVE THE PICTURES TO SKETCH. 

(8:30 PM) ❤ felicia: call her in the morning to remind her again ? 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: ok thank you. 

(8:30 PM) ❤ felicia: ? 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: because my handphone running out of money alr. 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: i want to hide in one space to do. 

(8:30 PM) ❤ felicia: or you cando it in school ? 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: but then it's either laylin or the computer. 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: cannot. 

(8:30 PM) ////  I: the pictures are with the computer. 

(8:31 PM) ////  I: the hard copy is with laylin. 

(8:31 PM) ////  I: it's either this or that 

(8:31 PM) ////  I: OR ELSE I JUST CANNOT DO IT. 

(8:31 PM) ❤ felicia: your father's camera have 

(8:31 PM) ////  I: i deleted, cause he needs it for work. 

(8:31 PM) ❤ felicia: o.o 

(8:31 PM) ❤ felicia: now he's there ? 

(8:31 PM) ❤ felicia: with his camera ? 

(8:31 PM) ❤ felicia: put it back for the time being uhs 

(8:31 PM) ////  I: he is, but if i use no BATTERY. 

(8:32 PM) ////  I: no battery he scold me 

(8:32 PM) ❤ felicia: o.o 

(8:32 PM) ////  I: even if there is 

(8:32 PM) ////  I: the pictures arent there anymore 

(8:32 PM) ////  I: i deleted them 

(8:32 PM) ❤ felicia: then on a a4 paper , anyhow draw it 1st , then go to the corner & draw nicely . 

(8:32 PM) ////  I: seriously. 

(8:33 PM) ////  I: now i walk fowards cannot. backwards also cannot. NOW EVEN THE LEFT AND RIGHT SIDES DOESNT EVEN PERMIT ME. 

(8:33 PM) ❤ felicia: why ? 

(8:33 PM) ////  I: this is worse than 进退维谷 

(8:33 PM) ////  I: see

(8:35 PM) ////  I: it's either: laylin(fowards)the computer(backwards)left the camera. right i deleted them. maybe even if diagonally also cannot. even got the pictures inside the camera, the battery depletes and i get scolded. 

(8:35 PM) ❤ felicia: hais . 

(8:35 PM) ❤ felicia: then no choice lors 

(8:36 PM) ❤ felicia: must try your best to use the pictures inside the computer 1st 

(8:36 PM) ////  I: WITH ALL THE DARNED, DAMNED noise? and the insufficient space for even a piece of a4 paper? 

(8:36 PM) ////  I: i doubt it. 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: mine also cant uhs . 

(8:38 PM) ////  I: and the fucking act cute sister. 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: i'm trying to concentrate on reading the tb , while there's the music , even if no music , the tv can be heard & my mum's & sis voice can be heard 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: all jumbled up . 

(8:38 PM) ////  I: CLOSE THE DARNED DOOR. sorry i cannot do without vulgarities now. (8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: xD 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: lols . 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: the tv very loud ^^ 

(8:38 PM) ❤ felicia: msn also uhs . 

I'm seriously not blaming Laylin. Sighs. Art.