do u all care about me?no.
do u all know how i feel right now? no.
do u even think that i am living now? no.
do u care about my feelings? no.
do u think this is even of ur business?no.
do u see me as a human, or as a dog? a dog , i suppose.
does the absence of me affect all of you? no.
if, i came back from a mc two days ago, and i came back, would any of you know? no.
if i happen to be talking to you, and you were talking to someone else, who would you answer first? the other person, definitely.
do u take me as an idiot? yes.
do u think i am mad? yes.
do u care if were to say i wanted to die now? no.
do u hate me? yes.
would you be worried if i threatened to jump down a building? no.
i am in a dilemma.
if i were to ask you, whether should i go to this sunday's KFC meeting, should i go?
NOOOOO! I WILL BE ONLY BE TOO HAPPY NOT TO SEE YOU THERE!
did i answer of YOUR answers to these questions correctly?
i suppose so.
i still have the whole chunk of this written on my desk.
i would have already expected that no one would even stop and read it.
it would be too lame.
you might have told the teacher, if otherwise.
cuz i vandalised the table.
but contrary to ur beliefs, these questions were running through my mind only a few hours ago.
i am sad. do you all realise it? NO.
even this was on my blog, not on my desk, i would have mentally expected that no one would read it.
i suppose no one visits this blog though.


[if your name is mentioned, no offence meant. i only wanted to voice out my thoughts in this part. i am sorry if u feel angry, but i couldn't help it.]
i received several comments from kaixin, yesterday night, and the the night before.
she said that my typing style was copied from felicia.
i would have admitted this if this was commented to me about two-three months ago.
but now, no.
i was trying not to copy people.
anyway, in what way was my typing style the same?
there's a few obvious differences, did you even know?
i don't add an "s" suffix to some of the words, which felicia did.
like "rights©"
felicia said anyone could have copied her typing, which i never really intended to do. but she said that there's this word that it is copyrighted.
"urhms©"
i added the symbol, so that people would not say me of copying her.
i unintentionally used this word a few nights ago on msn.
i am sorry.
the other thing was, yesterday's conversation with kaixin too.
she said that i was bossy.
ok, in what way you might ask.
i never intended to have that misunderstanding,
but she said that i shouldn't have said to lead them where to get to KFC.
i should have said to tell those who didn't know how to go there to say that you can tell me if u dunno and i can bring you there.
i got a little pissed off.
and a little irritated.
k nvm, who cares about how i feel anyway.
i don't think i have the freedom of speech.
and i feel that it was 好心没好报.
i thought i would have taken u all there if u didn't know,
in the end i got labeled as "bossy".
and now, i don't even know if i should go or not.
i have strong sense that something would happen if i go there,
but that always happen if i go out with u guys.
but it never happened if i went out with my primaryschool friends.


ok. next thing.
scolding time.
english lesson today.
i am very pissed off about this,
but i still will try to curb my temper.
the person going to be mentioned, don't be so stupid as to
deny that u have said this.
PONTIANAK said that i was a pig.
so?
pig in chinese is ZHU.
not zu.
if you people have lousy pronunciation, don't bother saying it.
i don't care if you say that if i am a pig or not.
but, i am going to argue about this.
so what if you are slim? so what if you are pretty?
so what if it's ur privilege to say fat people like me is a pig?
i tell you truthfully, it is never your privilege to say that people who are fat are pigs.
didn't ur parents tell you that if you say negative things about people, and laugh at it,
it will befall unto you?
so, be careful what you are going to say.
and, ur 猪朋狗友 sherry toh.
i know that both of you are slim.
it is again, not your privilege to say that i am a pig.
so?
i admit that i do look like a pig, but i am definitely not 不爽 about it.
don't ever give me that face, which sneers at me.
it is not going to make you look bigger.
my size will tell you that, you would be crushed into ash when i really get vulcanized.
so, slim does not mean that it is your advantage, but it is also your disadvantage at hand.
just a passing comment, sherry toh and zhang mingcheng do not look like a couple when they hold their hand.
they look more like an elder brother holding a younger sister's hand.