haiz
i am a little fearful.
guess thats why i cried during flag-raising.
i am scared; i dun feel safe...
my parents havin cold war.
all becuz of a stupid trip to malacca...
then is like the trip was cancelled after my father
told his boss to have a few days off.
then hor,
and is like he has tolied all his years for his boss le lor...
the few days' off wasn't even enough to pay my father back lor...
his boss is sort of cruel de lor.
if my father doesn't ask for days off,
he wouldn't even ask him de lor.
puii.
he deserved those meagre few days de lor.
but i just couldn't understand why in the world did he want
kick up a fuss
with my mother about that lor...
even if cannot go, singapore got so many places what...
haiz.
he shouldn't give in to his boss so much.
he's like a ball being rolled here and there.
and the pay he gets isn't even enough to pay him back for all those
hard work, gallons of sweat, blood, and energy he has generated to that fcuking boss lor.
he has to do all the jobs that comprises of more than three ppl de lor.
then is like i think his boss should pay him MORE.
we are poor like siao liao lor.
almost couldn't make ends meet.
=(
anyway, my stand isn't with my father...
i think my mother more pitiful lor...
she is like... stay at home for ten years, looking after us liao lor...
but what she gets is all the rants from my father all these years.
haiz.
then is like the trip wasn't her fault lor.
aiya.
dun wanna explain.
it is so exasperating.
duncare!!!!
HECKCARES!
i am weary.
i am fearful.
i am nervous.
i am scared.
inconfident.
i want to cry.
nothing's gonna be good for me anymore.
my life's going to get darker and darker,
and the brightest shade might just be black.
what is life??
to me, it sounds like a burden
a burden that is wholesomely-filled with bad things, depressions.
it is DARK.
jacinta, are you going to be happy? in the future?
i need a vent.
enough about sad things le...
today, we got our report books.
then i got the 19th.
so lousy.
anyway, i din revise lor.
i din remember revising.
i did remember using the comp.
so, i am quite satisfied lar...
nvmnvm.
what else.
yeah...
PTM.
juz now mummy and me went back to deyi for ptm.
instead of ms lee sayingbad things about me,
it was my mother who said bad things to her.
=.=
lols.
lame sia.
tml my sister going to pahang to camp.
now she's packing.
hope she'll bring chew-ing-gum back.
not angying la.
lols.
haha
hmm.
at least i can laugh...
at the ptm hor...
ideasclub selling the things ma...
i pon the whole thing,
for fear that those seniors would be crazy and scold like siao.
pls lor, we're not ur sandbag.
we're not ur venting hole either.
so, pls just find another place to make urself happier.
then is like i walk past very malu lor.
aiyah.
dun care lor.
i dun giv a damn.
and then hor...
today when i went home...
is like i was trying to catch up with wanying
but then there was this four idiots,
who did this.
i'll tell euu what they say...
-trying to find a hole in them to go through-
(there were three girls, and a guy)
guy:you all three very teng teh leh.
one of the girls: why? cannot meh?
another butted in:we won't give way to ppl whom i dunno
the last one:yalor.
shen jing bing.
i was like thinking that they all like very the siao lor.
but i din say anything
silence is the best solution to this kind of situation.
i just like curbed my temper, wait till they all walked down the whole stair,
then walk really fast.
hahaha.
haha...
today is i pangseh wanying instead of she pangsehing me.
LOLS.
haha.
long post, i realized.
lols.
bb...